More then a month since I wrote my first weepy, whiny post about my little girl’s loose tooth, it finally came out. I started to give my Sophie her nightly supplements and when she opened her mouth I saw her tooth was gone.
I knew it would be soon when I saw the tooth earlier that day. I even thought about pulling it out just a few hours before she lost it, I knew it was just dangling by a thread. It had taken so long to come out I almost felt like it was holding on for me and for her, waiting for her to have more clarity so that it wouldn’t be a empty meaningless event, but there it was a hole where her baby tooth use to be.
We searched the house, I was sure she hadn’t lost it before the sandwich she had just eaten. We are pretty sure it was swallowed. She seem oblivious to it all.
I felt empty and just worn out. The war to remain positive and to have faith that God will guide my hands to heal my child is a tough one and I have lost another battle. Autism has stolen her first tooth and everything that goes with that.
I determined to not let this be a crushing blow. I feel the pain of greif, but I will only allow this to be a ripple in my soul, not a wave that will over take me. I have determined that everything this enemy takes from us they will pay back with joy when she is healed.
I am planning a party. When she is healed we are throwing the biggest party we have ever had. All the relatives that she should have known are required to be there. All the presents and games she should have enjoyed, she will enjoy. She will meet friends. We may even take a week or 2 off work to travel and show her all of the things she should have seen in the world already. This will be a celebration equal to all of the celebrations this has taken from us and then some. Put that in your pipe and smoke it stupid autism!
I believe that my child will be healed by next Christmas. Yes this is an extremely bold statement and I am gathering up all the moxie and determination I have to put that in writing. It seems logical to me. By this time she will have about 30 more rounds of chelation under her belt. I believe that should be enough to remove the mercury and her mind will be clear. I am not saying that she will be just like every other child by this time, it is more like an accident victim who comes out of a coma. I believe she will have woken up. She will still have some recovery and rehabilitation to go through.
So I have given you something to watch, something tangible. Succeed or fail.
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